Macarons, Blondie, and “the Dip”

I think the secret to enjoying the second half of life is learning new things.

Seth Godin says before you commit to learning something new, you have to decide whether you’re willing to get through “the Dip.” The Dip is the most difficult part of the journey, in which you’ll be tempted to give up. 

So how do you get through the Dip? It’s like Jeff Bridges’ response to people who want to know how to stay married for as long as he and his wife have: “Don’t get divorced.” The way to make it through the Dip is to not give up. 

Sounds easy. But it’s not. Just like staying married sounds easy, but sometimes it’s not.

During the past year, while taking painting classes with a group of people online, I privately announced to myself, at least 1000 times, that I was going to quit. 

I was on an emotional rollercoaster and I wanted off. 

When you’re learning a new skill and you’re in the Dip, you tell yourself, “Maybe I don’t really care about this after all. I thought I did. I mean, sometimes I do. But no–I don’t.”

This is b.s., of course. You do care. It’s just hard and you want to bail.

I was revising my stance on painting every other day. 

“Making movies is my top priority. Art is a distant second.”

“Yeah, I’ve always painted, but so what? I don’t have to attain mastery. I’ll just keep winging it.”

“The problem is, I don’t really CARE about knowing how to paint. I don’t even know why I’m here or how I got here. It’s possible I bought a thousand dollars’ worth of art supplies just to avoid writing.” 

In fact, filmmaking is my top priority. But I still want to know how to paint. Even if I didn’t want to admit that on the bad days.

The bad days usually occur during the ugly “middles.”

The start of a painting is exciting. When you tone the canvas and map the composition, you’re full of hope and optimism. But as you move forward, you are bound to enter an ugly middle stage in which your painting is not looking so hot and you don’t know what you’re doing and you have no idea how you’re going to get out alive. 

It’s tempting to give up when you’re in the ugly middle stage of a painting.

But if you have grit, you keep going. And if you keep going, you develop even more grit. Sometimes you turn a corner quickly, and the painting starts to look good. But often not. For me, it’s usually touch and go until the very end. There’ve been times where I’ve wanted to throw in the towel even when I’m just a session away from finishing a painting!

To help you get through the Dip, you should take a class. I’ve been taking oil painting courses from artist Kimberly Brooks at FirstPersonArtist.com. Here’s why it’s invaluable: 

1) Knowing that you have class on Tuesday, say, builds accountability into your practice and gives you a pressing reason to try “one more time” to finish that hideous painting you’re stuck on. You have to present SOMETHING, and it may as well be that painting, otherwise you gotta start a new painting. And you can’t do that, because you’ve already started 25 paintings that you’ve abandoned. Stacks of shitty paintings you didn’t get very far into are all over your house. Even you have to admit it’s time to finish something. 

2) Learning with a group fosters camaraderie. You’re in the trenches (the Dip) together! It’s fun to commiserate and share triumphs together, and it’s great to have people who’ll talk you off the ledge when you want to jump. When you’re down, someone else is up, and they will josh you out of your foul mood. You’ll do the same for them when they are losing faith. Plus, it takes time to become good. It’s a long haul. A slog. So, you’re going to want some company on the journey. And it’s nearly impossible to stay focused and determined over months and months without some kind of support, structure and accountability. 

3) For the same reason Alcoholics Anonymous is effective, seeing others who’ve done this difficult thing makes you think that maybe you can do this difficult thing, too. When you see your classmates steadily improve, it tells you, or your subconscious, that you will improve over time, too. 

4) Having an instructor give you assignments, lessons, and constructive criticism is key. Even if you tend to be a lone wolf and are self-directed and self-motivated, you might not be challenging yourself to do deliberate practice. Working alone, I had plateaued. For years! I didn’t realize what I needed was a TEACHER. Duh! And obviously, the better the teacher, the better your progress. (Kimberly Brooks is a fantastic painter and one of the best communicators I’ve ever met. If you’ve dreamed of learning how to paint, check out her course, Oil Painting – Flow and Fluency.)

Here’s a description of a typical struggle in the Dip:

During one painting session, in which I was trying to paint a macaron, I kept saying, “I can’t do it! I quit!” And I’d jump up to go look for something to eat in the fridge. I was miserable. But I was so antsy, I couldn’t even eat. So, I would rush back to my chair, before I could change my mind, saying, “I’m going to try one more time!” I did this a few times, til finally, I stepped back from my work and was surprised to see my macaron looked almost real. It felt like a miracle. (My macaron is pictured at the top of this post.)

My younger sister, who is an educator, has since told me that that moment of intense discomfort when you’re about to learn something, and grow, is called “the zone of proximal development.”

A bigger miracle: Recently, I made it through the Dip. I know the exact moment it occurred. 

I had just finished a portrait of Blondie. The portrait is not perfect. But it’s not about that. And it’s not about my being proficient now. I’m not. It has nothing to do with whether I think I’m “good” or whether you think I’m good. What changed is that I no longer feel like it’s impossible to become good. I finally banked enough experiences of struggling terribly then making it to the other side such that I now trust that if I just keep at it, I WILL make it to the other side.

It feels so good to be out of the Dip. It seriously almost did me in. I could’ve quit at any moment. 

How do we find it in ourselves to keep on going, to make it through the Dip? Maybe it only happens when we really, really want what is on the other side. 

Blondie. Oil on canvas. 20 x 16 in.

Comments

  1. Sheri Meredith says

    Hi Courtney! I loved this blog! I’m currently working through “the dip” (and didn’t know it has a name until I read your blog!) Kevin and and I are empty nesters now and I miss the beautiful chaos of having 3 girls running in and out of the house, the noise, the groups of drill teams girls coming to my house to get ready for the game, running around in all directions, and so much more. Top all that with being in the second half of my life and really trying to find my purpose and something to do that would be meaningful. While I haven’t joined a group, I bought a bike and have taken up bike riding. It’s hard! I feel like I’m dying when I go up hill. I feel like I’m too old and out of shape when I’m pedaling against the wind. Sometimes I even think of giving up because I’m panting, sweaty and exhausted, but I keep going! Bike riding is helping me get through “the dip!” I’ve found something I enjoy and I actually look forward to it everyday after work. It also gives me time to pray, reflect and plan. Guess what? There are days where Kevin joins me and while I clearly ride at a slower pace than he prefers, he continues to ride with me (after he has just spent an hour and half at the gym!) Maybe he is secretly working through “the dip” too. 😉

    • Sounds like it was so much fun, having that ‘beautiful chaos’ of kids always coming and going! I’ve always thought that if I had kids, I’d want my house to be the one everyone hangs out at! I love that you are looking for what to do next, to have purpose and create meaning. Wow–I admire that you’re bike riding! Up hills, no less! That’s BADASS, Sheri! So cool. And yeah, I bet it gives you a chance to hear your inner voice–wonderful. (We met one of the founders of the AIDS bike ride, and he said people often finish the ride and make some big change in their life, because the ride gave them a chance to get in touch with what they wanted.) Love that Kevin joins you sometimes. 🙂 So glad you commented!

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